I understand its hard, I smoked weed for so many years. I still cry in pain for all the years that was stolen from me.įirst of all things you use to make you forget or take the pain away needs to be only positive coping skills. Twenty four years later, after therapy, I'm finally healed. I was groomed by my step-father and molested at five also. Your body responded, your child-mind liked the attention and time he spent with you. You liked it because its a natural response. Why did I like it ? why did I do it to my classmates ? why am I like this ? I never told anyone about our secret game. my grades were always so low, I started drinking and using early. I want to make him pay for my social anxiety, for my borderline personality disorder, for everything that's wrong with me.
he stole my childhood he made me a perverted young girl.
I want to suppress all my dirty fantasies that he gave me. Now as a teenager I look back and I never want to think about sex again. I knew things I shouldn't it would always impress my friends. instead I did it to others my age, I stayed with these thoughts for so long wanting to do it again at 8 years old. it's my fault I should've known it was wrong. I remember liking it and being happy afterwards. so he touched me, performed oral sex on me. he was very nice and told me we had to play a secret game, that it was normal and everybody does it. I used to go on 'walks' with this family friend.
